Are YOU a Scaredy-cat?
What will you do when fear takes the wheel?
Okay, I am going to just say it: I am facing a big fear right now. I am on the verge of launching something very important to me, ready to put my neck on the line, and walk out on a tightrope to stand on a stage that feels too big for me…and that gnawing fear of failure is taking up residence in my gut.
I’m doing it anyway.
I am climbing a new mountain in 2020. I’m staring up at it right now and wondering…
How am I ever going to make it to the summit?
Folks, I am not kidding you. Climbing the Grand Teton in 2018 has changed my life profoundly. It catapulted me onto a dance floor where I now tango with my biggest fears. I want you to understand that I was the last candidate to volunteer for such an adventure. You know me, the scaredy-cat with a paralyzing fear of heights? THE. LAST. PERSON. Who would ever do something so radical to mend a wound in my life. A very big, open booboo that would not heal. I want to explain a bit.
Fear had always held me back from doing big things and risking failure. I have been plagued all my life with limiting beliefs and stories about myself that went something like this: I am not good enough. I am not pretty enough. I am not smart enough. I am not skinny enough. I am not bold enough. I am NOT ENOUGH. Every time I pushed the boundaries to shine my light I received a stronger push back. Those messages got louder and louder until they were screaming at me. Another voice inside would whisper, Stay small, Lisa. It’s much safer.
Someday I will share the reasons why I fell into this circular, debilitating set of beliefs, because those reasons are an important part of my development. What I will say now is that I accepted and internalized a lot of negative messages, messages that permeate every layer of society. Such messages are delivered in poisonous doses by men and women alike – countless, insidious, crippling messages about being female.
The overarching idea that screams the loudest in society is that women should be nice, compliant, and avoid making waves, while strong, fierce, intelligent women are dangerous and ugly. Those who aim to destroy such strong women are often referred to as Queen Killers in women’s empowerment circles.
Are YOU a scaredy-cat?
There it is. I’ve just shared one of my biggest hurts in life. I am a complicated soul with a scaredy-cat fear of everything that seeks to crush my spirit, with a love for all things living, tossed into a blender with the nature of an idealistic-dreamer-artist who wants to change the world yesterday, and a dash of unlimited power. That strange ‘smoothie’ is me, Lisa Wilson Brumby, queen bee, lioness, formerly known as She Who Played Small. I have already begun my climb. Scared to death and doing it anyway.
Have you been a scaredy-cat about something for too long? Are you ready to break through and connect to YOUR power?
On March 2 we are FINALLY launching the CLIMB a MOUNTAIN program! I have been obsessing about it in a good way for weeks now, and we are both so excited to take you on this inspiring journey WITH US in 2020!
Keep calm and Brumbylon.
Thanks for hanging out with me – have a great week!
“The seed that grows toward the light begins in darkness.”